Saturday, November 29, 2008
4:57 PM
The further you are, the more i want you and the more i love you.
Hais.. Now baby is in camp. Usually i would have my doubts about whether she is being good or have been naughty but i guess those doubts isn't there anymore. I don't know whether is it because i'm trusting her more or have i grown tired of nagging at her. No matter what, i believe whatever that we have went thorugh for the past holiday being side by side one another all the time, definitely proved its worth. I was blamed right from the start that i was too possessive of her and that she never had time for anyone else. But if those selfishness wasn't there, would i still have the chance now to tell her i love her? i doubt so.
Throughout this six months going to seven, i have seen her change. Many thinks that i have changed her to what i wanted for myself but how many really knows that what i had wanted for her to change was merely for herself and for her future. Yes, many may think that i have created a chunk of rubbish as an excuse of my said to be destestable ways but how many really know that what i had truly wanted was actually a better her in the end..
Baby you always claim that you understand what i have been doing but are you sure you really understand it or were they just words to console me of my foolishness?
Many a times i wondered why i should ever had done all these before but as i though about it, i realise its just cause i love you. I totally fell into the sea and i guess that was expected by many.. The hardships i put you through were a lot but cause I wanted a better future for both you and me.
As i was saying , how many really understands what i have done but for sure, she had changed. Hopefully thats what she thinks too and hopefully she believes that everything that i had done was for her sake and not mine and that she have actually improve herself and is a better person now.
Hey baby girl, I know you are in camp now and hopefully you will read all these when you are back but nevertheless, i really hope that you have been a good girl and havent been talking to guys alright.. I have been real good and i hope you too.. Remember what i told you about how i hate girls lying to me? Thats why i never pass through a year but i really hope having you as my present pas and future, you would not make this mistake alright, its obvious that i have placed all my hopes into you.. And i hope you truly understands everything that i have nag. You still owe me a blog hor. rawr love you lots baby girl. Miss you alot too..