Monday, November 24, 2008
8:44 PM
~ As the day goes by, the love strengthens, the weakness forgotten ~
For some reason, the love for her seems to be building up, i seems to be more worried about her. Her actions always bewilders me despite being with her for so long. Even though she ain't the most beautiful woman in the world, even though she isn't the most perfect lady in the world but my heart seems to already have reached out for her..
The fact that i have already becomes so possesive merely made me realise that in the end, the one losing out is actually her.. Being who she are, she have changed way too much for me. It never seems right to ask her to change so much but how many actually knows that what i wanted was merely beneficial for her. Though many a times i was selfish to take her away from that many people whom wanted her but the forlorness that builds up between us when we are not together simply builds up.
If there was a choice, i would wish that we have never been together and not because i dont find it worth it but merely because i finds that everything is too hard for a soft girl like her. She belongs to someone who can bring her happiness all the time and not someone who keep wanting her to change.
These few weeks, the fact that she was and still is beside me everyday only make me realise that i would not get bored of her.. knowing how much i love her, i doubt i would get bored of her.
It indeed is a pleasure to know that you have someone there by your side loving you and asking you change for the sake of not only her but instead at the same point of time for your own sake too.
It too is good to have someone loving for you and probably caring for you when things are getting worse or when there are no one there for you. I really hope, i really wish that every each and everyone of us out there have that very special one there for them.
Being love by someone, makes a difference. Having able to sacrifice for someone, makes a difference and being able to worry about someone, makes all seem worth it. What for living a life just for yourself? what for living a life where there are no one else to share that joy with you? On a nice note, at least i have my little baby who is currently lying down on me, there for me : D i love you baby girl.
Just due to all these, i would like to say thank you to my very dear baby alexandra who have been with me throughout this half a year being here and there and always for me. i love you baby.
To that little baby of mine : Hey my cute little baby hbope you have seriously listenened to those words that i have said and truly ponder about it. i really want our relationship to be on the right track and i really want our relationship to be a true relationship whereby everything of you affects me and everything of mine affects you. You still owe me a public awareness my dear. FASTER lah. loveyou