Thursday, September 25, 2008
9:31 PM
Complex feelings, Complete anxiety.
Every time when i am far away from you, those worries would come those woes would come and those complex feelings would come. I really wonder, when will i be able to let you go and i really wonder how. I am so afraid that upon relying on you, you would leave me i am so afraid that you would lie to me again. Things of the past never did should be reminded. Things of the past should never surface again. I could put everything down but could you? I sometimes really wonder if you are the happy girl when you are beside me or is it because you just want me to smile. I know you had always wanted me to smile. Those times when i sacrifice for you, was worth it. My bet had been proved. Not because we had done anything but just because i think it that way. I believe i love you and i hope you love me too.. You had been a good girl i know but when will you entrust your life to me. When will you not hide anything from me and when will you be the little good girl that will always be beside me. I know it may be then or i know it ma be now. I really wish to be able to walk my dog with you everyday. Just side by side holding hands and kissing whenever we feel like it. I want this world to be ours i want this world to never be taken away from us. Baby i need you. I once thought before. If i die tonight or if i die any other days, would you cry. i wouldnt want you to cry just because i love you. i would wipe those tears off your eyes if i have to. I want to give you my everything be it my joy , my happiness or everything else. You told me it was your nature that you acts like a baby and my next thought was was it because you are sad and you are trying to put things away or is it because of your natural nature. I don't really mind how you act my dear girl.. be it baby or what. I just request to be beside you all the time. Even if you were to cry day and night, i would be with you. Even if the whole world would be gone, i would be with you. i will always be with you my dear girl. i love you.. I sacrifice for you, you sacrifice for me. I change myself for you and you change yourself for me. This is what is call love. This is what made things true. Ups and downs, we had spent together. We seen each other cry, we seen each other went crazy and we seen each other be happy. i will always take care of you my dear girl. no one would harm you and no one can harm you. i will lead you through the road if i have to. i love you baby..